I'll be goin to Outward Bound (OBS) for the next week or so tomorrow. Its a really tough adventure camp (or at least thats what its organisers think it is). Won't be back till the 7th of may afterwich I will get my greedy little hands on the latest MMORPG Guildwars. The beauty of Guildwars is that it has all the addictiveness of the other MMOs without their costly monthly subscription fees. Anyway, seeing as I will be fairly preoccupied in the next few months don't expect too many poems or posts or whatnot.
With that i leave you with something Sammi the silly little girl wrote (and I edited)
-The Last Sunset-
The last sunset we saw together
was achingly beautiful
As the sun went down in crimson splashes
darkness overwhelmed
The bright red gold and yellow
most brilliant in its last moment
Goes out in a blazing glory of orange
dancing across the horizon
The moon goddess ascended over her domain
It was her time to show her beauty
No bright colours hurting your eyes
No blinding lights of pain
The beauty of the night was in its
coldness and indifferent elegance
She didn't like the foolish courage
and emotions the day sparked
The goddess offered much more
The subtle whisper of power
The pervading voice
The hunger for more
Pitch black darkness with spots of quicksilver
dotting the midnight sky
Remember counting them one by one with you
One by one into eternity
So many dreams died under those stars
My life spent gazing at them
As men live and die they will continue
to stare down on us
Empires fall and people fade
but always they will stay
Sooner or later we will have to pay what's
due the sun won't last forever
For all the happiness and the joy
There will be a price
The final price all of us have to pay
I will always remember
Lost
love makes you realize the sun will
set one day
I watched as the sun rose slowly. Tinting the sky with a pale orange glow. Drawing away the fleeting darkness. Thickening the soon to be gone shadows of the night. I waited beside a tree. Its shaded branches filled with lush leaves as only they appear in the full height of spring. Glistening with the morning dew, the tree appeared from afar a grand majestic oak, covered in leaves of shining silver and green. I watched the slow movement of the awakening land. A bird perched on a high tree, surveying calmly the arising sun. A small rabbit, crawling across the grass.I looked to the lake, clear as crystal, reflecting the lazy meandering of the sun as it rose into the sky. That was nature, glorious in all its wondrous peace and beauty! Behind me i heard the call of my brother, clear and resonant, beckoning me to return to the prison of the city. I hesitated, tempted to linger a little longer still, in this precious paradise of the mind. But reason won out, and i returned that day solemnly to the torturous imprisonment of the urban jungle. They say emotion clouds reason, I say reason is flawed, and that without emotion, you do not live, you merely exist.
This is something i wrote completely out of the blue and subsequently forgot about roughly one month ago. I was looking for my brother's poems (Jamin or Er Ge) seeing as i was feeling guilt over posting my other brother's poems and not posting his. Consequently, i found several outdated essays i wrote for school (which i deleted), a couple of nice poems i had forgot about, the paragraph you see above and well none of my brother's poems (sorry Er Ge), Oh well.
OBS is coming up, its four days away actually, and i have had absolutely no training or proper equipment and preparations (or whatever it is you do for these things). I am probably quite unfit (seeing as i did rather badly at NAPFA today) and should not be doing things like Outward Bound at all, but who really cares, i'll just go there and have fun (thats the idea right) and maybe break a leg or two.
Ok, must study for E math test tomorrow now, i'm off
-Sunlight in her hair-
It sliced through the darkness
And slipped through the strands,
It glittered off her gentle head
As touched by angel's hands.
And in her eyes there it sparkled,
The subtlety of her radiance
As she smiled charmingly,
She bedazzled the audience
With the melody of a thousand angels,
She sang with all her soul.
And everyone was left mesmerized
At her amazingly perfect whole.
But I could only admire
From the back of the room.
In the shadow, she won't notice
Notice me, under the fallen gloom.
Did she know I loved her
That I admired her gracefulness
Her words like the sigh of lilies
choked me with heaviness
She had beauty, but I did not
I loved her so, she could never know
That my
love could never fade
Passion unending, it could only grow
The light shone, on her sparkling form
As she left without a care
Her glory lost, forever gone from me
The Sunlight in her hair
-Written by Sarah Tsang-
-Alone without her-
I was sitting on the beach
that calm white shore
The smooth earth beneath me
like a fine sandy floor
I reached out to the sky
heaven smiled kindly
The clouds rolled on by
I lay there blindly
I was still waiting
but why was that so?
For what was i waiting?
why did everything move so slow?
I stretched out my arms
fingers aimlessly seeking
What was I looking for?
what precious teaching?
I was sad and adrift
alone without anchor
My mind was lonely seeking faith
but I was without her
She was who i was waiting for
but she would not appear
For her i am still waiting
but she still isn't here
I wonder when she'll come
but time was slowly gone
I heard the winds of time calling
driving pushing me on
Abandoned dreams I couldn't wait
my purpose and hope still unclear
I suffer in miserable loneliness
for now I'm Alone without her
-Written by Jeremy Tan-
Both poems were edited by Sarah and myself and are the result of our discussions over msn, pretty good eh?
Da Ge's Poems
-Poems by the Bigf*** (who also is my elder brother)-
Here's a poem for you that I saw off the internet. Maybe you read it already:
Roses are red
Violets are blue
All my base
Are belong to you.
Good right? Here's one that I composed:
Look, I'm a chicken!
Look, I'm a duck!
I fly round the farm
And I don't give a smiley face!
Ok here's a serious, serious poem:
I glance at the smiling digits
On my screen
They are not amiable
They are sneering
They mock me with the passing minutes
Which seal my sloth tomorrow.
I block the screen with my hand
But the clock still stands there
Invisible
Ticking
Unrepentant
Incorrigible
So small, yet so haughty
This time, I will overcome
And make my 9.30 class.
Even if I haven't done my homework.
Shut up, clock.
Even though you do not speak you still mock me.
I will defeat you!
Ok, hope you liked my poems. Byebye!
-untitled-
I was sitting on the beach
that calm white shore
The smooth earth beneath me
like a fine sandy floor
I reached out to the sky
heaven smiled kindly
The clouds rolled on by
I lay there blindly
I was still waiting
why was that so
For what was i waiting
why did everything move so slow
I stretched out my arms
fingers out seeking
What was I looking for
what precious teaching
I was sad and adrift
alone without anchor
My mind was lonely seeking faith
but I was without her
She was who i was waiting for
but she would not appear
For her i am still waiting
but she still isn't here
I wonder when she'll come
but life must still go on
I feel the winds of time
and my dreams will not live on
I haven't thought of a name for this one yet and the words could use editing, anyone got an idea for one? All suggestions are welcome and can be either posted on the tagboard or
emailed to me. Thanks all
-The Test of Time-
A human is born
the world celebrates
A human goes on
the world yet remains
The trees grow up
green boughs stretch out
the tree withers dead
the world's still around
The buildings rise
the cities built
the buildings fall
the world still won't wilt
The river flows
ages go by
the river dries up
the world still stands time
Mountains stand proud
time is lost
yet mountains still crumble
to the world no cost
But the ages will pass
eternity will come
and even the world
will eventually be undone
What then is a human
beyond heart and mind
an insignificant speck
in the endless mist of time
-written 11/4/05-by JTZ-
freedom vs disapointment
Finally, two major competitions in my life have just ended. The verdict on SYF isn't out yet but i'm pretty sure we won't disapoint there, debate is abit different.
I don't mean to boast but we went from never getting past the even the preliminary round to semi-finals man. Afterwich, we got mobbed at impromptu just tonight and got a sound thrashing by Dunman High (the judges with the exception of 1 said it was close but i agree with the 1 guy, we got thrashed). We got thrashed yes but we also went alot further than anyone else from fairfield has gone in awhile, for that i think Debate deserves a pat on the back. Right now though i'm crossed between feeling relief at these competitions finally being over and done with and feeling lousy that we lost and that we could have done better.
On the other hand, we've got our
work cut out for us next year and RJC under 14s (competition for the juniors) is next wednesday and we're gonna be helping them out.
Know if you'll excuse me i have to immerse myself in
computer games for the next 3 hours or so to recover from all the stress and lost time these past few weeks. I'm off
Just got back from evergreen Sec, we just beat crescent girls sec in the quarters. That basically means that for the first time in near 6 yrs Fairfield IS INTO SEMI-FINALS!!!! WOOOOOTT!!!
Ok now all i need to do is win at the next impromptu round (meaning we only get 1 hour prep time and we recieve the topic on the day itself) against one of the 4 bloody best teams in B division and we're into finals, while juggling tests and SYF drama (which we're gonna get
gold and honours for) on thursday, no sweat man.
All this means that i will be effectively disabled for the next week or so again so i'm gonna be failing more tests again, oh well (shrugs).
Anyway, I wrote this at the same time i wrote the one about Andrew, I dun think u guys will like it but i dun care
-Chasing Shadows on the Wind-
Visions of future things ideal
Youth are wont to have
So it has been they will continue to be
chasing shadows on the wind
Fallen dreams cast aside
determined still undaunted
chasing bliss gaining sorrow
finding darkness, an abyss
Yet some may find a glimmer of hope
a shining light come through
Bright day fills the desolate night
visions and dreams fulfilled
yet when the Youth gains his prize
shadows he still shall seek
As they have been ever they will be
Chasing Shadows on the Wind
I've been thinking of redoing this blog (actually the 1st time i'll have done one since this blog was done by kook). But i don't think i'll have time to do it anytime soon, so for those of you who agree with my brother, chill out and bear with it for abit.
Where?
For those of you who know Andrew Yip, i wrote this poem with him in mind
-Where?-
When you wake up you see the sky
see it yonder hue
you marvel at its beauty still
but where oh where i can't see it there
when you walk by you feel the breeze
feel it refresh and cool
you enjoy the wondrous view
but where oh where i can't see it there
When you go down
to the park
see the green trees grow
you admire nature's glory great
but where oh where i can't see it there
when i wake up
my life is bleak
all things dark and grey
you find so much meaning so much joy
but where oh where i can't see it there
Just got back from debate competition at Yusof Ishak secondary. I've got good and bad news i guess. Bad news is we lost to NJC, good news is i tied best speaker with NJC's third speak who spoke too fast for me to understand what he was saying. Feeling rather depressed now, i guess i should have worked harder and stuff, oh well done is done. Looks like Abbas is out of the team for good, he got really nervous and screwed up real bad. Nabil (hes the coach) is bloody pissed with him, looks like i'll have to
work with Wei Zhang again.
On other things, me and some friends are working on a fantasy universe (like LOTR or D & D). Peter the grouch (don't tell him i said that) has been a great help. Sure hes and anti-social, negative miser but when it comes down to it you can rely on him, as long as it dosen't involve school anyway. Next week is gonna be hell man, we have 3/4 common tests, all on subjects i haven't been studied for (esp. chinese), i am damn screwed man.
Anyway I know most people who read this blog hate the poetry i post on it but its my damn blog and i'll post what i like so heres what i wrote on the bus on the way back today.
-Love?-
Love is mindless, a frenzied brute
with fiery passion, no thoughts intrude,
Love is a mountain, stoic and endless
it's firm endurance, pure and blameless,
Love is elegant, short-lived and alarming
sweet whispered nothings, light-hearted and charming,
Love is vicious, deceit and jealousy
entangling hate, unforgiving for eternity,
Love is many things, kind or cruel
perception and definition, questionable without clue,
So then what is love? flighty or true?
that dear reader, is up to you.
